God Came In Last Night and Re-arranged My Life

19 Apr

Most of my blog posts these past few months were about my love life, about Jon and about how happy my life WAS when I met Jon. The relationship we HAD was real, it was different from the previous relationship I had. It began unexpectedly and suddenly ended.

We shared 10 months together, 10 months of happiness, challenges, learning, and experiences. It was not a bed-full-of-roses love story, but I should say- that it was real and worth-remembering.

Last night, we decided to let go. It was hard and painful. It was something I thought would never happen to us. I believed in “us”, I believed that we would surpass all trials and we would have a happy-ending story. I believed- but that was it. I’d rather keep the reasons of our break-up, I respect and will always respect him and what we had. We talked for more than one hour, we were crying and we were both in pain. And, everything reached its finale.

When I decided to commit myself to him, I was happy to let my dad and family know about it. That same scene happened again last night, but I was crying- that was the only difference. I picked up our Magicjack and shared the sad news with my Dad. I was crying while telling him what happened. My Dad-who never ever fails to understand everything was with me last night (he always is). I wanted to keep everything to myself but I was dying in pain, I was crying- tears I couldn’t hide. I knew that telling my family about what happened was part of the challenge and to start off, I faced it and informed my sisters. They were good in hiding their emotions (not like me), they comforted me and became my walls, I knew they were in pain too.

Another chapter has ended. I know I have long way to go, I need to pick myself up, one by one. I know myself well, I’m sure there will be lonely times, but I’ll get by. God is with me, and He will never leave my side. He came in last night to re-arrange my life. He has better plans for me, for Jon, and for all of us. I know, in time, I will be happy again. I don’t want to dwell in the past and let hatred win over me. God has given me many blessings to be thankful and grateful for all the time. They say moving-on is a process, and yes it is, a long one indeed but I God will never fail to guide and guard our hearts, we just have to have faith in Him.

To Jon: I don’t have regrets and I will always keep all the good times we had. Wishing you happiness and more blessings to come. Never lose your faith in Him. Thank you for being part of my life. Take care of yourself!

To my family, friends: thank you for everything! I am blessed because I have you all with me. Through joys and sorrows.

To myself: be strong, move forward, and be happy! 🙂

Our first picture together


our last picture together

This will be my last blog about this matter.

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