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God Came In Last Night and Re-arranged My Life

19 Apr

Most of my blog posts these past few months were about my love life, about Jon and about how happy my life WAS when I met Jon. The relationship we HAD was real, it was different from the previous relationship I had. It began unexpectedly and suddenly ended.

We shared 10 months together, 10 months of happiness, challenges, learning, and experiences. It was not a bed-full-of-roses love story, but I should say- that it was real and worth-remembering.

Last night, we decided to let go. It was hard and painful. It was something I thought would never happen to us. I believed in “us”, I believed that we would surpass all trials and we would have a happy-ending story. I believed- but that was it. I’d rather keep the reasons of our break-up, I respect and will always respect him and what we had. We talked for more than one hour, we were crying and we were both in pain. And, everything reached its finale.

When I decided to commit myself to him, I was happy to let my dad and family know about it. That same scene happened again last night, but I was crying- that was the only difference. I picked up our Magicjack and shared the sad news with my Dad. I was crying while telling him what happened. My Dad-who never ever fails to understand everything was with me last night (he always is). I wanted to keep everything to myself but I was dying in pain, I was crying- tears I couldn’t hide. I knew that telling my family about what happened was part of the challenge and to start off, I faced it and informed my sisters. They were good in hiding their emotions (not like me), they comforted me and became my walls, I knew they were in pain too.

Another chapter has ended. I know I have long way to go, I need to pick myself up, one by one. I know myself well, I’m sure there will be lonely times, but I’ll get by. God is with me, and He will never leave my side. He came in last night to re-arrange my life. He has better plans for me, for Jon, and for all of us. I know, in time, I will be happy again. I don’t want to dwell in the past and let hatred win over me. God has given me many blessings to be thankful and grateful for all the time. They say moving-on is a process, and yes it is, a long one indeed but I God will never fail to guide and guard our hearts, we just have to have faith in Him.

To Jon: I don’t have regrets and I will always keep all the good times we had. Wishing you happiness and more blessings to come. Never lose your faith in Him. Thank you for being part of my life. Take care of yourself!

To my family, friends: thank you for everything! I am blessed because I have you all with me. Through joys and sorrows.

To myself: be strong, move forward, and be happy! 🙂

Our first picture together


our last picture together

This will be my last blog about this matter.

Things I learned today

17 Jan

1. Be quiet and calm.

2. Discern before you move your lips
3. Never expect. Not everyone is like you.
4. Understand
5. Pray and pray and pray
6. Don’t pray for a sign alone, also pray for wisdom.
7. Despite of all life’s challenges, never wish anyone a bad karma. God is watching you.
8. Free your mind and heart from worries, give yourself a room and time to think. Always remember that everything happens for a reason.
9. Be kind.
10. Be with people who love you and accept you for who you are and who you are not. 

This day has been tough for me. I’d rather keep the story with me, I respect the people involved. I hope tomorrow will be a better one for me, and for all of us.

Lord, In everything that happens, in joys and in sorrows, I’ll always be grateful to You, Lord. I know that not everything that hurts is meant to cause pains, some are meant to guide me to a better path. I surrender everything to You. 🙂

Resigned

10 Jan

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Just got home from work. Last night’s shift was gloomy. 😦 Jon has resigned.

HSBC has always been part or our love story; we met and put up our love story inside and outside HSBC so it would really be sad and different without him in the office.

He waited for my lunch break at 1:15am. We ate together, we had a short walk, and talked about many good things about the two of us. My lunch ended at 2:15am. He wanted to stay longer but he couldn’t because he needed to surrender his ID.

He left at 3:20 am, I was at my work station when our friend gave me Jon’s mug. She said Jon couldn’t get inside because he lost his access to all our office’s entrance nooks. My eyes turned teary, so I logged-off, went out, got my cp and asked him where he was. He called right away, he was already at U.P and on his way home. I wanted to see him and it was so sweet of him to go back to the office. He waited for my second coffee break. I went to the parking lot where he waited for me. It was a different feeling. 😦

Hun, I always say this: wherever you are, whatever your decision is, bring my full support with you. You know that I’ll always be here for you. As you’ve said last night “mawawala ako sa company pero tayo never na maghihiwalay”. I super agree. Good luck on your next career. I’ll always be your no. 1 Fan… 🙂 Promise! 🙂 I love you very much! 🙂BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

New Year, Welcome 2011

2 Jan

>Hello 2011! 🙂


I welcomed this new year with my family and relatives. Unfortunately, Jon did not make it. He spent it with his family and friends, of course, that was understandable, I missed him though! 🙂


Happy New Year! 🙂


I’ll Catch up.. Now na!

11 Nov

I miss my blog! I’ve been busy lately with work, and every time I get home, my bed never fails to call my name right after I take my after-work-bath.

 

Let me catch up by sharing a few things that happened these past few days. 😉

•work: nothing new with it, except for the new faces. New hires are coming everyday, good job Care! 🙂

•home: our chihuahuas are over a month old na, Weeeee… they grow so fast and I and my family are now undecided… to sell or not to sell. They’re lovely, and three of ’em are long haired. We know that we have to sell them, we have 12 chihuahuas na if we’ll keep the 6 puppies pa. But letting go of ’em will be hard too.

What else?? Still about our home sweet home. Hmmmm, mom just bought a new fridge,.. Hahaha and we have 3 now, and I wonder how she’d be able to maximize ’em. She said the other one would be for family gatherings when she’d have to cook for guests… and the short one goes to my ate’s future room.

hmmm and another thing, I’m getting used to my new way of losing weight project. You all know that my health condition requires me to trim down. Jon is very supportive and he inspires me. So when we’re not together, I take a picture of what I eat (all meals) and I twit ’em and Jon sees ’em. So far so good. I have been getting good feedbacks and I’m happy!

Another interesting subject about our home “billboard” is my ate’s pregnancy.. 🙂 everyone is soooo excited for the baby. We are all her caregivers… and we make sure that she eats and rests well. (I can’t wait to see my first pamangkin na…) :))

•lovelife: everyday gets better and lovely because of Jon. Misunderstanding is part of all relationships, so that’s part of ours too. But good things always come in after some petty fights.
>we get to learn from each other.
>we both look for our work-arounds and make them happen.
>we get to know each other well.
>we become more comfortable with each other
>and the most important thing that happens every after fight is —we never go back to those issues and things that we have already worked on… 🙂

More about my lovelife?? Hmmm I’m very happy because we share and talk our future plans together. We are both excited to make ’em all happen. 🙂

Sooo that’s all for now. I’ll sleep na.. 🙂

 


everyday gets better and better

7 Nov

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Jon just left and I’m starting to miss him agad. He went here last night, and it was another lovely weekend for us. 🙂

Every day gets better and better, and better!!

Good morning blog hoppers! Let’s all start the week with a smile plastered on our faces!

God bless! ^^. BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Relationship Update # 1

19 Aug

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2  months and counting…. yes… we just started our rel’ship two months ago, and we both feel this- it seems like we’ve been years. We both don’t know why we feel the same, but it feels like we’ve known each other for long now.

For the past two months, we had petty fights about little things (differences…), but what made those little misunderstandings interesting was-we both want to make this relationship work. 🙂

  • Jon is jealous, at first he wouldn’t admit it, but he gave in! lol… he finally admitted that he gets jealous when I go out, he gets jealous when I am with someone he doesn’t know, he gets jealous when I go out at night without him, and I FIND IT CUTE…:) Jealousy can be healthy sometimes! 🙂
  • What I appreciate most about him is his honesty. 🙂 That matters to me! I remember this one proof. 2 weeks ago, he had to attend a children’s party with all his good friends… he honestly told me that his ex-gf would be there. When I got the text message, I just smiled, and let him know how happy I was at that time. 🙂 No questions were asked…no doubts and no ifs. I trust Jon! 🙂
  • We are not a typical bf-gf who celebrates “monthsaries”, we both agreed on that one! He must admit, in his previous relationship/s, he was one of those guys who believed in celebrating what they call “monthsaries”, and I must say that I was one of ’em too….:) Funny, when we started our rel’ship in June, we both had this idea in mind…no more highschool stuff for us- no more monthsaries… but we’d love to celebrate years together.. 🙂
  • We both love dating with our friends. That’s what we enjoy doing almost every weekend. Sharing great memories with the people we love is amazing! I look forward to meeting his family and friends too in time. I know the right time hasn’t arrived yet… some things are not that so smooth for him right now, and I understand everything about it. There’s a right time for everything. I am just excited to meet them and share memories with them too. (I heard many good stories from Jon about them- his family and friends, and I am just excited. Whenever Jon is ready, I’m too! :))
  • last update: I am no longer a liquor-sucker…lol! 🙂 Jon wants me to cut back on beers. He wants me to watch my diet closely too. 🙂 He knows my health issues…that’s why! 🙂

I am happy with how things are going! We may have ups and downs along the way, but I am sure we’ll get by. Like what I always say to him “It’s now how to make this relationship work, it is WHY we both want to make it work. 🙂

I love you Mr. Jonard B. Josef! 🙂

See you tomorrow! 🙂