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La Union is LOVE :)

1 May

Just got back from my 4-day vacay in La Union. It was fun, real fun! I was able to discern about a lot of things and realized that there are things to be grateful and thankful for.Yes, some things happen unexpectedly, and they may bring us pains but in the end, we would have realizations that God really has better plans for all of us.

When I was in La Union, everyday was a blissful one for me, realizations and acceptance were filling me in. There was a day when I realized how lucky and blessed I am for having a loving family and relatives, and TRUE friends who will never ever leave my side (through joys and sorrows).

I know God has better plans for me. He gives me a lot of wonderful people who never stop believing and caring for me. So I really have tons of reasons to be thankful and grateful everyday.

I remember the text message I got from TL Lisette (one of my true friends who never stops caring for me) “Be strong Jam, it may not make any sense today, but in the future you’d know why things had to end…” well I guess She’s right!

Lord, thank You for guiding and guarding me. I have failed you for soooo many times but you never leave my side. I’m leaving everything up to You… 🙂 I love you! :-*

La Union, you became a refuge to me… 🙂 Thank YOU LU! ^^.

I captured over 540 photos during the trip and uploaded them via Multiply. Sorry, but the albums are set to “Contacts” only, so feel free to add me up (I will only accept invites from the people I personally know though..) Here are some of the photos 🙂

La Union Beach and Moi 🙂

the beach 🙂

anak ni Manong Fisherman 🙂

Next stop: Sagada!! I need to save up this year for Sagada, Vigan, and many more! Sana matupad ko lahat! weeeee! ^^.


Things I learned today

17 Jan

1. Be quiet and calm.

2. Discern before you move your lips
3. Never expect. Not everyone is like you.
4. Understand
5. Pray and pray and pray
6. Don’t pray for a sign alone, also pray for wisdom.
7. Despite of all life’s challenges, never wish anyone a bad karma. God is watching you.
8. Free your mind and heart from worries, give yourself a room and time to think. Always remember that everything happens for a reason.
9. Be kind.
10. Be with people who love you and accept you for who you are and who you are not. 

This day has been tough for me. I’d rather keep the story with me, I respect the people involved. I hope tomorrow will be a better one for me, and for all of us.

Lord, In everything that happens, in joys and in sorrows, I’ll always be grateful to You, Lord. I know that not everything that hurts is meant to cause pains, some are meant to guide me to a better path. I surrender everything to You. 🙂


10 Jan


Just got home from work. Last night’s shift was gloomy. 😦 Jon has resigned.

HSBC has always been part or our love story; we met and put up our love story inside and outside HSBC so it would really be sad and different without him in the office.

He waited for my lunch break at 1:15am. We ate together, we had a short walk, and talked about many good things about the two of us. My lunch ended at 2:15am. He wanted to stay longer but he couldn’t because he needed to surrender his ID.

He left at 3:20 am, I was at my work station when our friend gave me Jon’s mug. She said Jon couldn’t get inside because he lost his access to all our office’s entrance nooks. My eyes turned teary, so I logged-off, went out, got my cp and asked him where he was. He called right away, he was already at U.P and on his way home. I wanted to see him and it was so sweet of him to go back to the office. He waited for my second coffee break. I went to the parking lot where he waited for me. It was a different feeling. 😦

Hun, I always say this: wherever you are, whatever your decision is, bring my full support with you. You know that I’ll always be here for you. As you’ve said last night “mawawala ako sa company pero tayo never na maghihiwalay”. I super agree. Good luck on your next career. I’ll always be your no. 1 Fan… 🙂 Promise! 🙂 I love you very much! 🙂BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

New Year, Welcome 2011

2 Jan

>Hello 2011! 🙂

I welcomed this new year with my family and relatives. Unfortunately, Jon did not make it. He spent it with his family and friends, of course, that was understandable, I missed him though! 🙂

Happy New Year! 🙂

My 2010 and Its Highlights!

31 Dec

>This year has been a challenging year for me (talking about my health), on the other hand, it has been great and worth-remembering because of the good memories, wonderful people, and my new lovelife! 🙂

  • it was the time I underwent Rehabilitation and Spine Surgery. From 235 lbs, I lost a few baggage, down to 185lbs. The Operation went well. Thanks to my Doctors; to my family, relatives, and friends who prayed for me,  above anyone else, Thank You Lord for everything! 🙂 
  • April 5, 2010: a month after the Operation, I reported back to work. I had to attend another Process Training, and who would have thought that it was the time when I met Jon. 🙂 This was also the part of the year when I met new and wonderful people (Tranche 122; Julie, Leigh, Jay, and many more).
  • Singles For Christ: I became closer to Him. I found ways to thank Him and be grateful to the Man up above Who never fails to guide and guard us with everything we do. I met new people- My SFC Family. (Hopefully, this coming year will give us more time to bond all together..)

  • May 2010: After 5 years, our Dad came back from the U.S.A, I was very happy to see him and spend time with him even for just two weeks. We went offshore and that was one of the memorable memories that happened this year. (We’ll see you again in 2011 Dad, we love you very much!)
  • June 2010: this was the time when Jon and I became officially committed. Happiness! We’re down to our 6th month now and we have gone through a lot. Everyday is a learning process for us. I know that tons of trials are just around the corner, and everyday, especially yesterday (December 30), I realize/(I’ve realized) that no matter how bumpy the road we’re on right now… I’m certain that I want to make it through with him, no one but Jon. I’m certain that I want to spend my life with him. He’s an answered prayer, a heaven’s gift- that i’ll always be grateful and thankful for. (Hun, thank you so much for everything, for your love, understanding, and your patience. I am so sorry for the things and times that I was not at my best to understand you, I am so sorry for the small and big things that caused you worries and pains. I love you, and we’ll make 2011 happier, and more memorable. Don’t ever change, because I love you for who you are and who you are not, I see your flaws but I love ’em them too.. ^^.)
  • September 2010: Jon celebrated his 30th bithday with me. We went to Tagaytay and made every hour memorable. 
  • October 2010: Good news! This was the time when we found out my ate’s pregnancy!  Wiko, tita will you soon! Be good! 🙂
  • December 2010: The happiest time of the year. Yuletide season indeed! 🙂 It was nice meeting new people- Jon’s friends and family.
my spine surgery

my relatives. i love them! 🙂
Tranche 122
My Singles For Christ Family
Thank You Lord for the guidance! 🙂
Singing for Him
Manaoag, Pangasinan. Our first picture! 🙂
Dad and Moi at Kanin Club

Jon’s Birthday!
Wiko’s First Shot :))
New found friends! 🙂
I’d also like to take this chance to apologize for all the worries and pains I’ve caused to anyone or some people. I have said this before in my previous blog (3 Quarters)-To those who I may have hurt in any how, I am sincerely sorry. I don’t know why I’m saying this, but again I feel that there’s a need to say this. I don’t need an excuse or whatnot, but sincerely, I am sorry if I’ve caused pains to anyone, I am sorry.. I really am.

Tomorrow is a new year for all of us! 🙂 So what’s my New Year’s wish. I pray for a good health for myself, my family, relatives, Jon, friends, colleagues, and all their loved ones too.

Wishing everyone a Merry and Healthy New Year! 🙂

3 Quarters

14 Oct


With all honesty, I don’t know if I should even start this blog but I need to share this.

This year hasn’t ended yet, but as early as now, I am very thankful to God for everything that happened. This year’s first quarter lingered on my health issues. This was also the time when my relationship with God grew stronger, He found ways to draw me closer to Him. Before this quarter ended, I met new and wonderful people, including Jon who’s now part of my life’s journey. The second quarter started with happy memories too, happy memories with my Dad. God gave me and my sisters two wonderful weeks to be with our Dad again (after 5 long years). This was also the part of the year that I decided to open my heart to someone, to Jon. Our love story did not start quite right, challenges were part of our love’s story Chapter 1. (To those who I may have hurt in any how, I am sincerely sorry. I don’t know why I’m saying this, but again I feel that there’s a need to say this. I don’t need an excuse or whatnot, but sincerely, I am sorry if I’ve caused pains to anyone, I am sorry.. I really am…). The last quarter started with great memories and challenges too…(will write more about it before this year ends…promise…::) As these lingered, a deep sigh filled my tummy all through out my mouth and I couldn’t help but say “Salamat Lord…sobra!”.

Last night, as I helped myself to sleep, I realized many things… how much I’ve changed and how my life transitioned from where I was three years ago to where I am right now. I had questions in mind like: what would have happened if I didn’t choose to let go and move forward? what would happened if I chose to stay, and what would have happened if God’s plan on December 11, 2007 did not happen? My answer to this question was simple- my life would have been so miserable….and I thank God for not letting it happen. God helped me out, God pulled my hand and carried me away from that grave. My eyes were teary because of joy. I prayed and thanked Him for everything. After my emotional prayer… I smiled and said to myself don’t regret the risks I took 3 years ago… because that was the start of my happiness. Now, I can say, that “Jam started fixing her life three years ago, and she’s very happy and grateful now…” ^^.  I held my phone and sent a loooong text message to Jon. I wanted to let him know how grateful I am for having him around.

Now, I can truly say that everything happens for a reason. Everything that happens to us is written on the stars, that’s part of our fate. We don’t know what His plans for us, but I am sure that the sorrows He let/s us feel in our past and the future pains ARE PART of His plans. That doesn’t mean that He wants to hurt us (definitely not), He let/s us feel sorrows because He wants to teach us LESSONS, lessons that are painful enough to walk us through and guide us to where our lives should be. No matter how narrow and vague that road is, I’m sure that we always have Him in that journey. At times when we feel like giving up, He even offers His arms and strength and carry us.

We all have our own life’s journey, yours is different from mine, but I’m sure that we both experience HAPPINESS AND SORROWS, it’s just a matter of handling both worlds. ^^.  God wants the best for us, but we have to work for it.

To those who are in the journey of moving forward, just walk ahead, and don’t look back. God has better plans for you. Keep the faith and play your cards right. Ask for signs, He gives signs in various forms. 🙂

I wish everyone a happy life! Smile… 🙂

Makes Sense

8 Jul

>”life gets complicated when you don’t accept that life itself changes, and when all you do is look back.. Move forward and meet what your new life offers you-> new obstacles, new expectations, new relationship, etc. After meeting them, try your best not to make the old mistakes, be happy, and make sure that these NEW bits of your new life lasts a lifetime even after changes…” In short: always move forward, learn from your past, and never look back..:) makes sense!!:))